The year is nearing towards an end. And as the season fall, my life too has withered many a leaves. Lots of people have left my life or I have walked away.
There was a church I was going to, I have left and slowly cut ties with the leads and others. Some close friends showed their colors, whom I have now stopped talking to. I had some neighbors and apartment people whom I had got to know after coming to this new place at the start of this year, who turned out to be venomous than cobras, so stopped much interaction with them as well.
So there now, I have a shrunken small world now. But there are no fake ones in life now, no toxic ones. They may or may not come back into my life, but I have learnt lessons.
So, this year I have withered away the dries relations.
I painted this fall pic, watercolor on paper.
There are many a storms in a mans life. Some waves so strong that toss us to and fro.
But for me, the biggest challenge is calming the storms within me. This mind that races ahead of time, heart that overwhelms with emotions, and a soul that longs for a lot of things which no more exist in this world.
Oh, that I would rest in the promises of the lord, safe in the fort and shelter of the most high. Even when my eyes don’t see, when my intelligence doesn’t sense any ray of hope, let me remember that he has well planned and arranged my life and provided my needs and wants. Even despite my mistakes and human errors and flaws, his plan is perfect and will come to pass no matter what.
Why does this limited mind fail to trust in you, even after seeing your doings in all these past years of my life.
Wasn’t abraham stopped last minute before the sacrifice after his faith was tested. Has not the lord said the righteous shall not be moved. Is the lords hands shortened, that he cannot save. Did he not say, the one who keeps Israel neither sleeps nor slumbers.
Rest in the word of God, my soul.
Rest in his providence.
In his name is all the power and all you have to do is trust in him!
Not everyone would agree with this..
But if u want to save money. Then the best place to cut short your expenses is in beauty parlour.
There are only 2 popular hair cuts: step and layer cut. And that too it is the same if you get it done in a small shop for 250 rs or in big lakme or vlcc saloons.
Other than hair removal waxing and threading things everything else is a lie.
The facial, cleansing, bleaching, clean up everything is a lie. And does nothing much to your face. And most of these are chemicals and better to be avoided. If you are already beautiful, then nothing much happens..and if you are not beautiful, then these wont make you beautiful.
Also, no matter what they say. Your face is tanned, you need bleaching, you need de tan, lots of dark spots, do facial, whiteheads do steaming.. outright say no ..I don’t want all that..
In my whole life have done it a few times and I can tell it is a utter waste.
When we check the face after doing these. The parlour guys say immediately we cannot see the difference, after 1 or 2 days only the glow will come. I have thought lot about how is it scientifically, that after 2 days some effect comes. Well, bcos after 2 days we wont go back and ask, glow nahin aaya. And another thing, we have a psychological feeling that we have done facial and we are pretty. So we look at ourselves and think we are pretty.
So it’s all a business and we can avoid wasting money in this..I mean u want to save money and stay away from chemicals.. and again it’s my personal view and everybody has their own choice.
So, these are the canvas paintings I have done in the month. Decided to put this blog alone for art work i did.
The waters reflecting both sun and moon.
A Fiery sunset.
rainbow over Seven sister Falls, Cherrapunji.
clear water falls and rock formations.
The living root bridge, Mawlynnong.
Asia’s cleanest village, Mawlynnong.
A tree house.
Dawki, Umngot river.
Tea gardens, Shillong
Elephant falls, Shillong.
Clouds covering us over, Cherrapunji
Dawki, the river crosses over to bangladesh.
Golf course, Shillong.
Its a christian majority state, so lots of churches.
have many more pics but stopping here.
Throughout the world and in India we come across Don bosco educational institutions. And you know how it all began?
A man John bosco popularly known as don bosco was born in a family with many siblings and lost his father at the age of 2, leaving his mother to provide for whole family. Though John bosco was intelligent, he had to work as a shepherd and farmer and lots of other jobs and could not afford education.
Also, he studied the behaviour of boys who were rough and would often fight. At the age of 9 he had a dream of a man coming and telling that not by blows but by love you can win these friends. And that evil is bad and virtue is good. Then he had series of dreams like this.
As much he saw underprivileged and abandoned boys, he empathized with them and this later began as homes and schools for such young boys who were taught with love.
This small movement later spread across the world.
While you read this, after knowing christ, do you have a vision? Other than thinking about yourselves, do think of doing something for others? Even If it’s on a small scale, do it. Do the little bit you can for others because for them it might change their life,and who knows it might be the start of a revolution.
First 2 pics are of a Christian pastor making people fall here and there in the name of anointing and the next 2 pics are of Hindus carrying Kanwar yatra, where they carry pots and walk barefoot for miles.
We can never see a brahmin or any sophisticated caste person doing this in Hinduism or Christianity. It is only the dalits and backward caste people who are made to do such manual and foolish things. If a God requires you to be fool, then leave that religion.
Though I follow christ, I read bible and pray. I too believe in anointing but not which makes people fall, for what good is falling here and there. Anointing is for us to read bible better and pray for others with zeal and other spiritual gifts, which someday I will write in detail.
Everywhere, we are fooled and kept blind, so that we remain as lesser beings.
Stay away from such masses. God is to be worshipped in sanity and a sound mind.
The last decade was tough. full of heartbreaks, failures, changes, sickness and few good things. But constantly Gods grace sustained me.
The 2 years when I left god as a prodigal son,the father came in search of me while I was suffering and found me, embraced me. Lesson learnt: no matter what happens in life, never leave bible and prayer.
Money I earned in the past decade is less or negligible. If I had not been married and career would have gone as I had planned, I would have had so many lacs extra by now. But instead I have a husband and son. And my son is the best thing that has happened so far in my life.
Many unfulfilled dreams and desires yet in my heart and mind. Let me see if I am able to make best out of life the coming years.But I am sure the next decade will be less turbulent and more of a predictable journey, revolving around Jaden.
My battle is now against myself. Against anger, bitterness,rage, ego, envy and hatred.
Health, happiness, safety, progress and lots of love. This is the list I want for the years ahead. Amen.