Thoughts on birthday

The last decade was tough. full of heartbreaks, failures, changes, sickness and few good things. But constantly Gods grace sustained me.

The 2 years when I left god as a prodigal son,the father came in search of me while I was suffering and found me, embraced me. Lesson learnt: no matter what happens in life, never leave bible and prayer.

Money I earned in the past decade is less or negligible. If I had not been married and career would have gone as I had planned, I would have had so many lacs extra by now. But instead I have a husband and son. And my son is the best thing that has happened so far in my life.

Many unfulfilled dreams and desires yet in my heart and mind. Let me see if I am able to make best out of life the coming years.But I am sure the next decade will be less turbulent and more of a predictable journey, revolving around Jaden.

My battle is now against myself. Against anger, bitterness,rage, ego, envy and hatred.

Health, happiness, safety, progress and lots of love. This is the list I want for the years ahead. Amen.

Time to be a ‘Reality show judge’ 

Famous actresses after marriage or child birth when offers they get reduces or their market value decreases due to other actresses  takeover, opt for this career. It pays them decent and keeps their career going, while being at home with their kids when needed. The latest being kareena in the line. It’s shocking  that despite her lineage and family being top bollywood family, after so much promotion of her pregnancy, workout after childbirth and her sons constant being in the lime light, she became a reality show judge and could not get movie offers. 

Also, the wives of big actors like Shahrukh khan, Akshay Kumar and hrithik Roshan have another career line . They launch fashion brands, decome interior designers and write books and blogs,which God knows who actually does and remain discredited. 

Why am I  stating these now, that these big shots have an alternative to their career. While we middle class women, working in IT industry or core companies, when after marriage or children if we want some alternative which is less time bound, yet paying decently, we fail to find one. One job which many people suggest is teaching. As it pays decent and gives time for family. But I feel teaching is a very serious job and only those passionate about making students succeed should go for it and not to just while away time. 

Some girls I know have started creche or daycare, which again I will never venture into as it is very delicate job to deal with those little beings. 

So there, is there a job as a reality show judge or an interior designer which these big shots do? 

Ponder on this and if you come up with some idea share with me guys!! 

‘Fishy’  palkova

Palkova is one of my favorite sweets. Made from milk, boiled and  condensed, added sugar to until becomes solid. Looks like this. 
It has  long cooking time as we have to keep stirring the milk to avoid getting burnt. As I had excess milk at home, I started making palkova, in the heat of Gurgaon summer, standing in front of stove for a long time, was an unwanted thing to begin with. But the desire to eat palkova was so much that any effort did not matter. 

After hours of stirring and making a perfect palkova. Allowed it to cool a bit, put in a bowl and sat to relish the dish. And with first spoon in mouth, goosh… I tasted  fish. Yaak..again to be sure I tried licking and tasting again without puking. Not sure of how this is happening and just to be sure, I got this tasted by hubby also. Result was the same. It was all fish+palkova taste. One of the yukkiest taste. 

After wondering I realized just 2 days back, I had made fish curry in the same kadai in which made palkova. While i prepare fish curry , I never eat it, only my family does. Tamarind, coconut milk, fish, spices, all cooked for long time. Even after washing kadai, I think in molecular level, the ingredients seeped into the aluminum kadai and remained there. Or else it’s some other  scientific phenomenon i do not get yet. 

Anyways, it spoilt my mood to an extent that I had vomiting sensation and an aversion of palkova anywhere for many days.